Para sayo

So there's this girl, she makes me write love letters. She makes me cry, she makes me smile and above anything else, she makes me go zxcvbnm. :'D Intindihin niyo nlng. :P

She celebrated her 18th birthday last October 23, and I don't know why life is so bastos that all the things I planned, failed. (dba Jhen?) T_T Anyway, I'm trying to make bawi kahit nasa ospital ako ngayon. Buti pa dito may net sa bahay wala. </3 Tssss.

Okay. So, I'm an expert in playing with words. I'm an expert in combining even the simplest words and making them sound oh-so-good. But not anyone can make me do that. Just her. :') But today, i'm not gonna blabber about how wonderful a girl she is because i'm pretty sure that everyone knows that already. I'm going to go beyond my comfort zone. I'm going to act brave and show the world something I made for her. (Seriously, naiiyak ako sa kaba.) Haha. :'D Hindi po kagandahan ang ginawa ko. Hindi po talaga. Pero masasabi kong nag effort naman ako.

To be downright honest, I'm good with my hands but I'm not good in drawing. :D Well, kaya ko naman kung mga linya lang eh pero kung dadagdagan na ng mga bilog at ibang hugis, Diyos ko, wag nalng. Pero dahil nga mahilig siyang mag doodle, gumawa ako ng FIRST doodle ko for her. Naaaaah ui. Haha. Natatawa ako sa ginawa ko. I don't know if my drawing can give justice to the doodle world. :D T_T Sorry talaga pero ito lng nakaya ng creativity ko. Hahaha. :D

No one has ever made me draw kasi aside sa pangit, (HAHA) ayoko talaga, kahit mag try man lang. Pero para sayo, kinaya ko. Chos. :D Alam kong di mo magugustuhan pero bahala na. Haha. :P Promise, gagaling pa ako. Gagalingan ko pa sa susunod para sayo. ^__^ I'll do better next time. Tawa ka muna kasi alam kong matatawa ka sa ginawa ko. Haha. (Lord ui, T_T) Pero okay lng. Nyahaha.

So ito na. . . T_T

Yung nag tetext tayo tas sabi ko na may ginagawa ako sa kwarto? Ito yun. Haha. SORRY. T_T Belated Happy 18th Birthday, Beautiful! :') :'*

From the bottom of my heart

Since yesterday, I've been dreaming about you. I've been dreaming about you and me, cuddling, living life as if it's our last, and loving like there's nothing more to do but to love. Life really is unfair eh? The moment you've decided to forget a fragment of your memory, the more it reminds you of the things you shouldn't. I'm not saying I want to forget you, I just want to forget that I have once loved you.

All these time, I know it's my fault. I never thought of the possibility of losing you for another. I never thought of getting hurt and hurting you as well. I never thought of falling into you this much. I never thought of it ending oh-so-soon.

As they say, people come and people go. Well, it's true. Some are meant to stay forever but others are meant to pass for a while just to add spice to your life. Maybe, you and I belong to the latter. Maybe you and I aren't going any further. Maybe you and I are not really destined to be together.

I'm saying goodbye to my selfishness. I want you to go on with your life. I don't want to be the reason for your misery anymore. I could've done more but I didn't do anything. I wasn't able to prove my love for you. And for that, I believe, I don't deserve you. Someone else does. I think. :(

Things will change as they always will. Feelings we once nurtured and held true may be made obsolete with newer and better ones. I don't blame you for finding consolation from another, I don't blame you for loving another. I am incapable of giving you the kind of love and happiness you have ever dreamed of. My incapability is even an understatement. :(

All these uncomfortable situations have fed my thoughts to grow. In retrospect, I thought that time will freeze to those merry days with you and things will be like as it was since Day 1. Well, my thoughts turned out to be it's exact opposite. There are things we cannot do but surrender unto. These things have boiled down to a humbling realization that your love does not revolve around me.

From the bottom of my heart, you deserve nothing less but to be the happiest girl you can ever be. Go forth and be with the person who can truly show you that he loves you more than these words could ever mean. Go and spend each day with genuine happiness and love. Go and love him as much as he loves you. Go. . .but don't ever dare to forget me. :') 

Again, people come and go. You came, and now, i'm letting you go. Know however, that you have left an indelible lesson and memory that I will bear for the rest of my life.

Distance may sprawl a thousand miles and both of us may stand on different grounds, but you and I just fall under one same sky. We see the same stars and the moon hover, and we will always be connected with each other.

From the bottom of my heart, I am sorry, thank you and I love you, my fairly beloved, and now, my good old friend. :') <'3

-DFWP-