World Wide Web Love

I honestly don't know how to start. Words are flowing but I seem to not know what to write first. Oh well, let's see where this will lead me. :D

World Wide Web Love. Yeah! Two things will probably pop into your mind while reading the title. First, the love for WWW OR LOVE FOUND THROUGH WWW. Cliche as it may seem, but yeah, I'm writing about the latter. I'm releasing my stream of thoughts again about LOVE.

I can still remember with great clarity how my friends will tease me everytime I talk to them about LOVE. They tell me that i'm way too idealistic when in comes to that matter. They tell me that I speak to them like a pro when in fact I had too many failed relationships. (Four, to be specific).

As a matter of fact, I and my friends had a little talk about this L word earlier this day. We were just talking about my condition as I was recently admitted to the hospital due to digestive disorder (forgive me but I don't want to talk about the details in between); the conversation was flawless until the topic about love killed it. 

Bro, alam mo, andame mong sinasabi about love di mo naman magawa. Sa karami-rami ng naging girlfriends mo, di ka na natuto! Wag tanga please. - Julius

Hindi ko alam kung sadyang tanga ka lang talaga o in love ka. Pare, ang pogi mo, yaman mo, talino mo, wag mo ngang pahirapan sarili mo. Tangina naman oh. - Tommy

What the f***! Please tell me you're kidding. You cannot possibly fall in love with someone just because you think she's this and that. You have to know if it's real pare. You're not stupid naman eh, you know what I mean. - Miguel

Wala na akong masabi tol. Galit na lahat sa katangahan mo. (laughs) Pero kilala kita eh, minsan ka lang magmahal ng todo. Siguro ang mapapayo ko lang sayo ngayon, mahalin mo muna sarili mo. Kung kayo talaga yung para sa isa't isa, Diyos na gagawa ng paraan para magkasama kayo. Wag mong ipilit yung hindi naman dapat. Pero alam mo, tingin ko naman, mahal ka rin niya eh. Yung babae, di mag-aaksaya ng oras sayo kung di ka gusto. Di siya matutulog ng matagal para lang maka text yung taong di niya nakita ni isang beses. Di niya uubusin ang panahon niya para sa isang taong di niya mahal. Alam mo na yun at di ko na dapat sabihin pa yun, dba? Sabi mo dati na ayaw mo siyang saktan. Sa ginagawa niyong dalawa, nagkakasakitan na kayo. Pareho pa kayong nag prepretend na ayos lng lahat. Kung nahihirapan ka, nahihirapan din siya. Kung may gusto kang tapusin, tapusin mo ng maayos. Kung gusto mong ipaglaban, pagpatuloy mo. - Kurt

I was completely left off guard after hearing those things from my friends. I nodded my head a lot of times and I couldn't agree more. They were right about everything and I have nothing left to say. But I kidd, of course. I am not going to end this post without telling you why I chose such title.

SO, here it is. There's this girl. The kind of girl who prefers food than gold. The kind of girl who looks so beautiful in baggy clothes than barbie-ish ones. The kind of girl who loves the unlikeable (vampires, skulls, heart-stopping stuffs and the like) and prefers to be unconventional than mainstream. The kind of girl who at first glance is just like any other girl, but at the nth look, is actually more than just a pretty face. The kind of girl who never fails to make me smile and fall in love everyday of my life.

I met her in one of the world's most famous social networking site. It was just an ordinary day and seeing her just gave me a feeling of "Ah, okay, maganda nga siya, kamukha nga ni beeeeeeeep". She didn't mean that much to me before. She was just one of the world's beautiful creations and I felt nothing more than that because first, I was in a relationship that time and second, I never thought that she was going to be this important to me.

I started the conversation with her. I was expecting a reply from her but she didn't. For the record, she's the first girl who ignored me. Haha. Yes, I was a stranger, but I never experienced being ignored by any girl before, just her po. ^____^ Days later, I received a message from her.  I couldn't explain my feeling that time. Was I flirting? I don't know and it doesn't matter anymore. But to be honest, I smiled after reading her message (sssssshhhhh). A few more conversations with her happened but due to the fact that we were both in a relationship, the unexplainable whatever discontinued. End of the first chapter.

A lot of things happened to me, to her, to both of us after that. I would want to share every bit of something about it but it would take me hours to finish and I don't want to bore you with my life's story, but if it already does, I am sorry.

Oh, you're reading still? Haha. Thank you! So, let's continue po. :) Without her knowing, I kept on stalking her, online of course. We lived in the same city but we never really had the chance to see each other face to face. I was just lucky enough to personally see the radiance that emanates from her whole being one March day. She was sooooooooooo tall that I feared the fact that she'll be taller than me. Realizing that such thought popped into my head, I knew that I was already feeling something unexplainable (sorry for using that word again, I couldn't find anything that would best describe my feeling that very moment).

She gave me premature ventricular contractions. And so, deep inside I knew that I already liked her! Yes, I was certain about that days, weeks, months after. I liked her but I never had the chance to tell her until recently. The initial feeling of admiration turned into a stronger emotion which eventually became love. Love, coupled with so much respect and hope that one day, maybe one day, we'll have our own story of living happily ever after.

To that social networking site, MORE YEARS! :D To WWW, LONG LIVE! :P To the LOVE i've found through the World Wide Web, ENDURE FOREVER! It's difficult to be far away from the one you love. It's even more difficult to fight for it. I know one that failed and faded but  I also know one that endured and lasted. I hope ours falls to the latter. I LOVE YOU! Always have, always will.

A Letter for my Future Wife

Dear Future Wife,

The moment that you’ll be reading this, I’m already at the altar, waiting for the world’s prettiest bride to arrive - YOU.

The moment that you said yes to me, I couldn’t  contain myself. I was the happiest person then knowing that the girl I have loved for so long wants also to spend eternity with me.

When I saw the look on your parents’ face, I knew that they were so glad seeing their dearest baby girl wearing a wedding gown. When I saw the look on your face while we were walking down the aisle heading towards our car that says “just got married”, I knew that you were both happy and afraid. Happy to have finally sealed a lifetime  bond with me and at the same time, afraid of what will happen next.

Dearest wife, don’t worry. Like you, I too am afraid. Let’s just be afraid together and let’s face life with confidence knowing that you have me and I have you. Wife, I have already promised in front of our God and of everybody that I will be loving you for the rest of my life. I want you to know that I respect the word’s sincerity so much that breaking it would tantamount to my whole being’s disgrace. Always remember that I will do everything to be the best husband you truly deserve.

Honey, I will be very much pleased to serve you all my life. I’ll work for a living, save for our future family and make you feel like you’re the Queen of the world. I will wake up each day with a smile on my face knowing that beside me sleeping, is the only girl who continues to amaze me with her beauty, inside and out, hair uncombed, make-up off, not dolled up, just you. Simply you.

I will be the best dad for our children. The only time that you will be seeing me kneeling down for a girl again is when I tie the laces of our baby girl’s shoes. The only time that you will be hearing me trash talk while playing online games is when I join our son duel after he has finished studying his lessons. I will be a loving family man. I will never ever leave you and I will provide for anything that you need, be it material things, understanding, patience and above all, the love that you and our children deserve.

Honey, I will support every endeavor you are going to take. I will never stand in your way nor stop you from doing what you like, as long as it is for our family’s good and for your own growth. I will be that guy who will always be proud for all the things you will do and you will accomplish.

Honey, thank you so much for choosing to spend the rest of your life with me. Thank you for preparing meals for us. For fixing my collars and cuffs and ironing my suits. Thank you for waiting for me to arrive at night and for welcoming me with your warmest hug and sweetest kiss. Thank you for having to sit on the couch with me watching Kobe Bryant shoot from down town. I know that you are not a fan of basketball but you still did. Thank you for your never ending love and undying support. You make me feel like i’m the luckiest man alive.

Dearest, let’s grow old together and let’s tell our grand children the story of our life. The day we first met, the day we first went out on a date, the day we fell in love and the day we promised forever. Even though our old age will rob us of our physical youth, I will still be loving you. We may have wrinkles and white hairs all over, but I know that we will still be the coolest and hottest couple ever. We will still be exchanging sweet kisses not minding how many teeth we have left. We will still be cuddling like teenage lovers, and we will be living each day as if it were our last.

I will be forever in love with you and only you. Ours is a love that will never end.

Love,

Jonas