World Wide Web Love

I honestly don't know how to start. Words are flowing but I seem to not know what to write first. Oh well, let's see where this will lead me. :D

World Wide Web Love. Yeah! Two things will probably pop into your mind while reading the title. First, the love for WWW OR LOVE FOUND THROUGH WWW. Cliche as it may seem, but yeah, I'm writing about the latter. I'm releasing my stream of thoughts again about LOVE.

I can still remember with great clarity how my friends will tease me everytime I talk to them about LOVE. They tell me that i'm way too idealistic when in comes to that matter. They tell me that I speak to them like a pro when in fact I had too many failed relationships. (Four, to be specific).

As a matter of fact, I and my friends had a little talk about this L word earlier this day. We were just talking about my condition as I was recently admitted to the hospital due to digestive disorder (forgive me but I don't want to talk about the details in between); the conversation was flawless until the topic about love killed it. 

Bro, alam mo, andame mong sinasabi about love di mo naman magawa. Sa karami-rami ng naging girlfriends mo, di ka na natuto! Wag tanga please. - Julius

Hindi ko alam kung sadyang tanga ka lang talaga o in love ka. Pare, ang pogi mo, yaman mo, talino mo, wag mo ngang pahirapan sarili mo. Tangina naman oh. - Tommy

What the f***! Please tell me you're kidding. You cannot possibly fall in love with someone just because you think she's this and that. You have to know if it's real pare. You're not stupid naman eh, you know what I mean. - Miguel

Wala na akong masabi tol. Galit na lahat sa katangahan mo. (laughs) Pero kilala kita eh, minsan ka lang magmahal ng todo. Siguro ang mapapayo ko lang sayo ngayon, mahalin mo muna sarili mo. Kung kayo talaga yung para sa isa't isa, Diyos na gagawa ng paraan para magkasama kayo. Wag mong ipilit yung hindi naman dapat. Pero alam mo, tingin ko naman, mahal ka rin niya eh. Yung babae, di mag-aaksaya ng oras sayo kung di ka gusto. Di siya matutulog ng matagal para lang maka text yung taong di niya nakita ni isang beses. Di niya uubusin ang panahon niya para sa isang taong di niya mahal. Alam mo na yun at di ko na dapat sabihin pa yun, dba? Sabi mo dati na ayaw mo siyang saktan. Sa ginagawa niyong dalawa, nagkakasakitan na kayo. Pareho pa kayong nag prepretend na ayos lng lahat. Kung nahihirapan ka, nahihirapan din siya. Kung may gusto kang tapusin, tapusin mo ng maayos. Kung gusto mong ipaglaban, pagpatuloy mo. - Kurt

I was completely left off guard after hearing those things from my friends. I nodded my head a lot of times and I couldn't agree more. They were right about everything and I have nothing left to say. But I kidd, of course. I am not going to end this post without telling you why I chose such title.

SO, here it is. There's this girl. The kind of girl who prefers food than gold. The kind of girl who looks so beautiful in baggy clothes than barbie-ish ones. The kind of girl who loves the unlikeable (vampires, skulls, heart-stopping stuffs and the like) and prefers to be unconventional than mainstream. The kind of girl who at first glance is just like any other girl, but at the nth look, is actually more than just a pretty face. The kind of girl who never fails to make me smile and fall in love everyday of my life.

I met her in one of the world's most famous social networking site. It was just an ordinary day and seeing her just gave me a feeling of "Ah, okay, maganda nga siya, kamukha nga ni beeeeeeeep". She didn't mean that much to me before. She was just one of the world's beautiful creations and I felt nothing more than that because first, I was in a relationship that time and second, I never thought that she was going to be this important to me.

I started the conversation with her. I was expecting a reply from her but she didn't. For the record, she's the first girl who ignored me. Haha. Yes, I was a stranger, but I never experienced being ignored by any girl before, just her po. ^____^ Days later, I received a message from her.  I couldn't explain my feeling that time. Was I flirting? I don't know and it doesn't matter anymore. But to be honest, I smiled after reading her message (sssssshhhhh). A few more conversations with her happened but due to the fact that we were both in a relationship, the unexplainable whatever discontinued. End of the first chapter.

A lot of things happened to me, to her, to both of us after that. I would want to share every bit of something about it but it would take me hours to finish and I don't want to bore you with my life's story, but if it already does, I am sorry.

Oh, you're reading still? Haha. Thank you! So, let's continue po. :) Without her knowing, I kept on stalking her, online of course. We lived in the same city but we never really had the chance to see each other face to face. I was just lucky enough to personally see the radiance that emanates from her whole being one March day. She was sooooooooooo tall that I feared the fact that she'll be taller than me. Realizing that such thought popped into my head, I knew that I was already feeling something unexplainable (sorry for using that word again, I couldn't find anything that would best describe my feeling that very moment).

She gave me premature ventricular contractions. And so, deep inside I knew that I already liked her! Yes, I was certain about that days, weeks, months after. I liked her but I never had the chance to tell her until recently. The initial feeling of admiration turned into a stronger emotion which eventually became love. Love, coupled with so much respect and hope that one day, maybe one day, we'll have our own story of living happily ever after.

To that social networking site, MORE YEARS! :D To WWW, LONG LIVE! :P To the LOVE i've found through the World Wide Web, ENDURE FOREVER! It's difficult to be far away from the one you love. It's even more difficult to fight for it. I know one that failed and faded but  I also know one that endured and lasted. I hope ours falls to the latter. I LOVE YOU! Always have, always will.