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So there's this girl, she makes me write love letters. She makes me cry, she makes me smile and above anything else, she makes me go zxcvbnm. :'D Intindihin niyo nlng. :P

She celebrated her 18th birthday last October 23, and I don't know why life is so bastos that all the things I planned, failed. (dba Jhen?) T_T Anyway, I'm trying to make bawi kahit nasa ospital ako ngayon. Buti pa dito may net sa bahay wala. </3 Tssss.

Okay. So, I'm an expert in playing with words. I'm an expert in combining even the simplest words and making them sound oh-so-good. But not anyone can make me do that. Just her. :') But today, i'm not gonna blabber about how wonderful a girl she is because i'm pretty sure that everyone knows that already. I'm going to go beyond my comfort zone. I'm going to act brave and show the world something I made for her. (Seriously, naiiyak ako sa kaba.) Haha. :'D Hindi po kagandahan ang ginawa ko. Hindi po talaga. Pero masasabi kong nag effort naman ako.

To be downright honest, I'm good with my hands but I'm not good in drawing. :D Well, kaya ko naman kung mga linya lang eh pero kung dadagdagan na ng mga bilog at ibang hugis, Diyos ko, wag nalng. Pero dahil nga mahilig siyang mag doodle, gumawa ako ng FIRST doodle ko for her. Naaaaah ui. Haha. Natatawa ako sa ginawa ko. I don't know if my drawing can give justice to the doodle world. :D T_T Sorry talaga pero ito lng nakaya ng creativity ko. Hahaha. :D

No one has ever made me draw kasi aside sa pangit, (HAHA) ayoko talaga, kahit mag try man lang. Pero para sayo, kinaya ko. Chos. :D Alam kong di mo magugustuhan pero bahala na. Haha. :P Promise, gagaling pa ako. Gagalingan ko pa sa susunod para sayo. ^__^ I'll do better next time. Tawa ka muna kasi alam kong matatawa ka sa ginawa ko. Haha. (Lord ui, T_T) Pero okay lng. Nyahaha.

So ito na. . . T_T

Yung nag tetext tayo tas sabi ko na may ginagawa ako sa kwarto? Ito yun. Haha. SORRY. T_T Belated Happy 18th Birthday, Beautiful! :') :'*

From the bottom of my heart

Since yesterday, I've been dreaming about you. I've been dreaming about you and me, cuddling, living life as if it's our last, and loving like there's nothing more to do but to love. Life really is unfair eh? The moment you've decided to forget a fragment of your memory, the more it reminds you of the things you shouldn't. I'm not saying I want to forget you, I just want to forget that I have once loved you.

All these time, I know it's my fault. I never thought of the possibility of losing you for another. I never thought of getting hurt and hurting you as well. I never thought of falling into you this much. I never thought of it ending oh-so-soon.

As they say, people come and people go. Well, it's true. Some are meant to stay forever but others are meant to pass for a while just to add spice to your life. Maybe, you and I belong to the latter. Maybe you and I aren't going any further. Maybe you and I are not really destined to be together.

I'm saying goodbye to my selfishness. I want you to go on with your life. I don't want to be the reason for your misery anymore. I could've done more but I didn't do anything. I wasn't able to prove my love for you. And for that, I believe, I don't deserve you. Someone else does. I think. :(

Things will change as they always will. Feelings we once nurtured and held true may be made obsolete with newer and better ones. I don't blame you for finding consolation from another, I don't blame you for loving another. I am incapable of giving you the kind of love and happiness you have ever dreamed of. My incapability is even an understatement. :(

All these uncomfortable situations have fed my thoughts to grow. In retrospect, I thought that time will freeze to those merry days with you and things will be like as it was since Day 1. Well, my thoughts turned out to be it's exact opposite. There are things we cannot do but surrender unto. These things have boiled down to a humbling realization that your love does not revolve around me.

From the bottom of my heart, you deserve nothing less but to be the happiest girl you can ever be. Go forth and be with the person who can truly show you that he loves you more than these words could ever mean. Go and spend each day with genuine happiness and love. Go and love him as much as he loves you. Go. . .but don't ever dare to forget me. :') 

Again, people come and go. You came, and now, i'm letting you go. Know however, that you have left an indelible lesson and memory that I will bear for the rest of my life.

Distance may sprawl a thousand miles and both of us may stand on different grounds, but you and I just fall under one same sky. We see the same stars and the moon hover, and we will always be connected with each other.

From the bottom of my heart, I am sorry, thank you and I love you, my fairly beloved, and now, my good old friend. :') <'3

-DFWP-

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Warning: This will surely be my lamest post, ever.

First, I don't know what to name this shit i'm making. Second, I don't know what to write about. I'm just counting on these words flowing out of my head due to the unfathomable anger I am feeling right now. Third, everything just seems so wrong.

I just came back from Somewhere Far and I am not quite sure of what will happen next. I thought I was going to enjoy it but I ended up miserable during the trip. Miserable to the point of losing my invaluable camera at the airport (I'm sorry sisters, all the pictures are there and yeah I got a piece of mom's @#$%, if you know what I mean). Shit happens, eh? Could someone out there spell lucky for me?

Okay. I actually don't give a damn about my lost camera. Humility aside, I can always buy and get a replacement. But what's actually worse than losing one of your treasured things is losing one of the people you love. Aaah, I can even hardly say the word love now. I'm such a dumb ass. Sorry.

Things could have REALLY ended, at least that's what I think after not getting a word from you, but I wish you knew I never intended to. I take the blame of course because the problem is with me. You were perfect after all (I have my own qualifications of perfect).

There's one thing that I would like you to know, or maybe others as well. I have always believed that the greatest mistake a guy could ever make is allowing other guys to make his girl smile. And once I fall into such  mistake, even my own hopes turn upside-down. Unlike girls, us guys can't help but keep quiet whenever we feel yeah that (I don't wanna say the word). Personally, I don't have the right to feel yeah that. But you see, I was in love, or think I was. But hell yeah, I WAS and STILL AM? I don't know.

We're like this far: YOU --------------------------------------------------------------------------- ME
and I cannot not think of you needing someone beside you whenever you feel blue and I am here doing nothing. That gives me pain, just so you know.

And so yeah. When I saw you happy with someone else, I thought of moving a step back. Maybe it's not me who's gonna make your smile a mile wide. Maybe it's not me who's gonna make your tears dry. Maybe it's not me who's gonna make your life a fairy tale. And maybe, i'm just not the right one for you.

Ayyyy! Does all of these things even matter to you now? I don't know. And I don't think so. I've always thought that you're the kind of person who could easily forget. I'm sorry I said that. But that's what I feel. Sorry. But then again, i'm hoping you won't because you promised (how dare me mention about promises when I myself couldn't keep one, again, SORRY).

I just hope that you'll be fine. I'll be watching, that I swear in the name of my name. :'D Now, I kid. I just wanna console myself. Anyway, I wanna let you know also that once upon a time I said this to myself: I think we look cute together. Wait no. We really look cute together. :')

'Til we meet, my love.

What makes you beautiful

Hi! Here I am again writing about something I can hardly bear. Just allow me to share the thoughts I have in mind even if I'm not quite sure how my words can put justice to this feeling that I have been keeping for days.

I want you to know that you're one of the few people who can make me cry with real tears. I am referring to those droplets that rolled on my cheeks last night, a night before and perhaps later before I go to sleep (that's our dirty little secret please). So before these tears drown me to death, listen to what I will say.

You're insecure

Don't know what for

You're turning heads when you walk through the door

Don't need make up

To cover up

Being the way that you are is enough

Everyone else in the room can see it

Everyone else BUT YOU.

Dearest, yeah, YOU! I know that I have caused you pain a lot of times already. I have failed you and I have really messed up so bad. No word can ever wipe those heartaches away but still I felt the need of reassuring you everyday of your life how beautiful you are to me.

When you wake up early in the morning, look at the mirror. That's the exact face of the person worth loving. You don't need to put that thing on your cheeks (how'd you call that again? blush on? yeah that). You don't have to add colors on your lips just to make you loveable. You don't have to paint your face with all those fancy I don't know what they are called because it will just make you look like a canvass. I tell you, BEING THE WAY THAT YOU ARE IS ENOUGH. My eyes are the living witness and I am pretty sure that a lot of people will agree. You just have to believe that you really are.

Baby you light up my world like nobody else

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed

But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell

You don't know

Oh Oh

You don't know you're beautiful

Yes, you truly light up my world in a way only you can do. I am so lucky to have known such a wonderful person like you. I get to see, hear and be with different people every single day but your existence and presence (in any way) is exceptional, indescribable and to be honest, the one that I have ever longed for. There is really something between us. Or was. I just don't know what it is/was. But I know you get my point. So many times you have asked me why you where in fact there are a lot of pretty girls here. My forever answer is, yes they're pretty but they're not you and for your information, YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL, YOU JUST DON'T KNOW THAT YOU ARE.

If only you saw what I can see

You'll understand why I want you so desperately

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe

You don't know

Oh oh

You don't know you're beautiful

Oh oh

That what makes you beautiful

If only I have the capability of exchanging our eyes, I would take the chance to replace yours with mine so that you can see how I perceive you, how I feel about you and how my whole being have desperately waited for someone like you to arrive. You  may think it's pointless to reiterate this because yeah we sort of ended up the things between the two of us already but I want you to know that the "sweet whatever" may have come to its closure but my feelings for you have remained unchanged. I don't know how long it will take me to forget you and the memories that we've had (if you may consider it) but one thing's for sure, you are a part of my life now. Our relationship was not legit nor was it explainable in the first place but I have no regrets and I'm happy because you allowed me too to become a part of your life (assuming, but I hope so).

So c-come on

You got it wrong

To prove I'm right I put it in a song

I don't know why

You're being shy

And turn away when I look into your eyes

Everyone else in the room can see it

Everyone else but you

I don't sing. I don't write songs either. But I write stuffs like this. Now, to prove to you that I'm right (right in saying that you are beautiful, special, precious and one of a kind) I'm blogging my personal testimony of how amazing a person you are.

Always remember that I will never forget the conversations that we had once upon a time. It was dark. It was 2am. It almost reached 3 or 4. We were clueless of what we have for each other but we managed to spar the distance, the doubts, the dictates of the people who never had the grasp of what was happening between us.

Things may have ended the way we didn't want it to be but I want you to know that IT'S NOT REALLY THE END OF EVERYTHING. In God's perfect time, WE SHALL.

I pray that He grant you the happiness you truly deserve. I'm away but a part of me will always stay with you. So here's to an intense feeling that we both share: LOVE. Yes. A part of us will both love each other until forever. And I'm quite sure with this.

World Wide Web Love

I honestly don't know how to start. Words are flowing but I seem to not know what to write first. Oh well, let's see where this will lead me. :D

World Wide Web Love. Yeah! Two things will probably pop into your mind while reading the title. First, the love for WWW OR LOVE FOUND THROUGH WWW. Cliche as it may seem, but yeah, I'm writing about the latter. I'm releasing my stream of thoughts again about LOVE.

I can still remember with great clarity how my friends will tease me everytime I talk to them about LOVE. They tell me that i'm way too idealistic when in comes to that matter. They tell me that I speak to them like a pro when in fact I had too many failed relationships. (Four, to be specific).

As a matter of fact, I and my friends had a little talk about this L word earlier this day. We were just talking about my condition as I was recently admitted to the hospital due to digestive disorder (forgive me but I don't want to talk about the details in between); the conversation was flawless until the topic about love killed it. 

Bro, alam mo, andame mong sinasabi about love di mo naman magawa. Sa karami-rami ng naging girlfriends mo, di ka na natuto! Wag tanga please. - Julius

Hindi ko alam kung sadyang tanga ka lang talaga o in love ka. Pare, ang pogi mo, yaman mo, talino mo, wag mo ngang pahirapan sarili mo. Tangina naman oh. - Tommy

What the f***! Please tell me you're kidding. You cannot possibly fall in love with someone just because you think she's this and that. You have to know if it's real pare. You're not stupid naman eh, you know what I mean. - Miguel

Wala na akong masabi tol. Galit na lahat sa katangahan mo. (laughs) Pero kilala kita eh, minsan ka lang magmahal ng todo. Siguro ang mapapayo ko lang sayo ngayon, mahalin mo muna sarili mo. Kung kayo talaga yung para sa isa't isa, Diyos na gagawa ng paraan para magkasama kayo. Wag mong ipilit yung hindi naman dapat. Pero alam mo, tingin ko naman, mahal ka rin niya eh. Yung babae, di mag-aaksaya ng oras sayo kung di ka gusto. Di siya matutulog ng matagal para lang maka text yung taong di niya nakita ni isang beses. Di niya uubusin ang panahon niya para sa isang taong di niya mahal. Alam mo na yun at di ko na dapat sabihin pa yun, dba? Sabi mo dati na ayaw mo siyang saktan. Sa ginagawa niyong dalawa, nagkakasakitan na kayo. Pareho pa kayong nag prepretend na ayos lng lahat. Kung nahihirapan ka, nahihirapan din siya. Kung may gusto kang tapusin, tapusin mo ng maayos. Kung gusto mong ipaglaban, pagpatuloy mo. - Kurt

I was completely left off guard after hearing those things from my friends. I nodded my head a lot of times and I couldn't agree more. They were right about everything and I have nothing left to say. But I kidd, of course. I am not going to end this post without telling you why I chose such title.

SO, here it is. There's this girl. The kind of girl who prefers food than gold. The kind of girl who looks so beautiful in baggy clothes than barbie-ish ones. The kind of girl who loves the unlikeable (vampires, skulls, heart-stopping stuffs and the like) and prefers to be unconventional than mainstream. The kind of girl who at first glance is just like any other girl, but at the nth look, is actually more than just a pretty face. The kind of girl who never fails to make me smile and fall in love everyday of my life.

I met her in one of the world's most famous social networking site. It was just an ordinary day and seeing her just gave me a feeling of "Ah, okay, maganda nga siya, kamukha nga ni beeeeeeeep". She didn't mean that much to me before. She was just one of the world's beautiful creations and I felt nothing more than that because first, I was in a relationship that time and second, I never thought that she was going to be this important to me.

I started the conversation with her. I was expecting a reply from her but she didn't. For the record, she's the first girl who ignored me. Haha. Yes, I was a stranger, but I never experienced being ignored by any girl before, just her po. ^____^ Days later, I received a message from her.  I couldn't explain my feeling that time. Was I flirting? I don't know and it doesn't matter anymore. But to be honest, I smiled after reading her message (sssssshhhhh). A few more conversations with her happened but due to the fact that we were both in a relationship, the unexplainable whatever discontinued. End of the first chapter.

A lot of things happened to me, to her, to both of us after that. I would want to share every bit of something about it but it would take me hours to finish and I don't want to bore you with my life's story, but if it already does, I am sorry.

Oh, you're reading still? Haha. Thank you! So, let's continue po. :) Without her knowing, I kept on stalking her, online of course. We lived in the same city but we never really had the chance to see each other face to face. I was just lucky enough to personally see the radiance that emanates from her whole being one March day. She was sooooooooooo tall that I feared the fact that she'll be taller than me. Realizing that such thought popped into my head, I knew that I was already feeling something unexplainable (sorry for using that word again, I couldn't find anything that would best describe my feeling that very moment).

She gave me premature ventricular contractions. And so, deep inside I knew that I already liked her! Yes, I was certain about that days, weeks, months after. I liked her but I never had the chance to tell her until recently. The initial feeling of admiration turned into a stronger emotion which eventually became love. Love, coupled with so much respect and hope that one day, maybe one day, we'll have our own story of living happily ever after.

To that social networking site, MORE YEARS! :D To WWW, LONG LIVE! :P To the LOVE i've found through the World Wide Web, ENDURE FOREVER! It's difficult to be far away from the one you love. It's even more difficult to fight for it. I know one that failed and faded but  I also know one that endured and lasted. I hope ours falls to the latter. I LOVE YOU! Always have, always will.

A Letter for my Future Wife

Dear Future Wife,

The moment that you’ll be reading this, I’m already at the altar, waiting for the world’s prettiest bride to arrive - YOU.

The moment that you said yes to me, I couldn’t  contain myself. I was the happiest person then knowing that the girl I have loved for so long wants also to spend eternity with me.

When I saw the look on your parents’ face, I knew that they were so glad seeing their dearest baby girl wearing a wedding gown. When I saw the look on your face while we were walking down the aisle heading towards our car that says “just got married”, I knew that you were both happy and afraid. Happy to have finally sealed a lifetime  bond with me and at the same time, afraid of what will happen next.

Dearest wife, don’t worry. Like you, I too am afraid. Let’s just be afraid together and let’s face life with confidence knowing that you have me and I have you. Wife, I have already promised in front of our God and of everybody that I will be loving you for the rest of my life. I want you to know that I respect the word’s sincerity so much that breaking it would tantamount to my whole being’s disgrace. Always remember that I will do everything to be the best husband you truly deserve.

Honey, I will be very much pleased to serve you all my life. I’ll work for a living, save for our future family and make you feel like you’re the Queen of the world. I will wake up each day with a smile on my face knowing that beside me sleeping, is the only girl who continues to amaze me with her beauty, inside and out, hair uncombed, make-up off, not dolled up, just you. Simply you.

I will be the best dad for our children. The only time that you will be seeing me kneeling down for a girl again is when I tie the laces of our baby girl’s shoes. The only time that you will be hearing me trash talk while playing online games is when I join our son duel after he has finished studying his lessons. I will be a loving family man. I will never ever leave you and I will provide for anything that you need, be it material things, understanding, patience and above all, the love that you and our children deserve.

Honey, I will support every endeavor you are going to take. I will never stand in your way nor stop you from doing what you like, as long as it is for our family’s good and for your own growth. I will be that guy who will always be proud for all the things you will do and you will accomplish.

Honey, thank you so much for choosing to spend the rest of your life with me. Thank you for preparing meals for us. For fixing my collars and cuffs and ironing my suits. Thank you for waiting for me to arrive at night and for welcoming me with your warmest hug and sweetest kiss. Thank you for having to sit on the couch with me watching Kobe Bryant shoot from down town. I know that you are not a fan of basketball but you still did. Thank you for your never ending love and undying support. You make me feel like i’m the luckiest man alive.

Dearest, let’s grow old together and let’s tell our grand children the story of our life. The day we first met, the day we first went out on a date, the day we fell in love and the day we promised forever. Even though our old age will rob us of our physical youth, I will still be loving you. We may have wrinkles and white hairs all over, but I know that we will still be the coolest and hottest couple ever. We will still be exchanging sweet kisses not minding how many teeth we have left. We will still be cuddling like teenage lovers, and we will be living each day as if it were our last.

I will be forever in love with you and only you. Ours is a love that will never end.

Love,

Jonas

Written by a guy.

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls or texts you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2am that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freakin' mean it. I know a few girl that need to learn this one, don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you.

The most attractive thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me. Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take advantage of the mood we are in. Let us pay for you! Don't feel bad. We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed. You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of make-up you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are. Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/'beautiful" I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of.

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change! Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect. Someone who will honor your morals. Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest. Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes. Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel. Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes and say I love you and actually mean it. Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree. Girls repost this if you think it's cute. Every guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so I hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.

ADVICE:

*Holding Hands*

-Girls: If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.

*Movies*

-Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder.

-Guys: Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other*

-Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too and mean it.

*Laying below the stars*

-Girls: When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heartbeat.

-Guys: Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

There's nothing wrong about being honest with your feelings. It ain't girly. It actually is super manly. :)