A

I should get an A this Wednesday or else, I will delete all my accounts in different social networking sites and I won't go to London with my Family. That, I promise. I'm too f^cked up.

:')

I've read everything. From your tweets, tumblr posts and mail. I'm trying to comprehend everything and i'd like to ask for an apology ahead because i'm afraid i'm not gonna be able to reply to it anytime soon. For a number of reasons that is. I just want you to know that I understand you more than you think I can. And whatever they say does not really matter. There's nothing to be sorry about but there's a lot of things to be thankful for. You're one of it. Today, I want you to promise me you'll be happy. Promise me. :') Stay safe, Beautiful! :')

P.S. Adieu, Au Revoir

Hoohayyyy

I once asked her about the title of a certain song in her blog. Se answered me but I forgot what it was. So then I "yahooed" it. Jk. I googled it. :') Then I told myself, maybe the reason why I forgot the title is that my mind doesn't adhere to the idea of the song's very title. Yeah right! I remember everything that she says apart from this. Weird, funny, I don't know. Mixed emotions. So yeah, the title is "Goodbye". It's a really nice song. The melody, rhythm. lyrics, everything! It's kind of sad though (that's an understatement) but because it is upbeat, it entices someone to listen to it fully. :') Like meeeee. :'D I listen to it always (but I make sure nobody's listening, they might think, yeah, that. :'D). I'm quite not sure na nga of my gender now. HAHAHAHA. I kid. :P

So here's the lyrics if ever you haven't heard of it pa. Pero I bet you guys aren't as kawawa as me man when it comes to songs. :D

The hope is fading from my lips

When I kiss you with goodbye

Now when you let go of our last embrace

Please don't look me in the eye

Secret's out, that I just might care about you

You broke me, you're leaving 

There's nothing I can do

I'll find a way to close the door

I want to say so much more but

I found you once, you're lost again

Two thousand miles took what could have been

I don't want to 

Won't let myself

I have to realize

This might be

This could be

This is goodbye

This is goodbye

The smile fate was wearing, slowly die

Minutes turn to months

Silence of the phone just mocks my cry

When I see that you've moved on

Secret's out that I did care about you

You broke me, you left me

There was nothing I could do

I'll find a way to close the door

I want to say so much more but

I found you once, you're lost again

Two thousand miles took what could have been

I don't want to 

Won't let myself

I have to realize

This might be

This could be

This is goodbye

Do I ever cross your mind?

Cause you're on mine all the time

I can't believe how unfair life is sometimes

Find a way to close the door

And be okay with nothing more but

Found you once, you're lost again

Two thousand miles took what could have been

I don't want to 

Won't let myself

I have to realize

This might be

This could be

This is goodbye

This is goodbye

The hope is fading from my lips

So there. Sad noh? Or it's just me who's feeling it? :'D Anyway, wala akong nagawa na productive today. :/ Might as well save myself from feeling asdfghjkl. --" SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD really. Boset. T_________________T I could just die now. F^ck this life. :'/ </3 K. THANKS. BYE. :(

Till OUR heartaches end

I was about to eat lunch (yeah it's past 1 already but I have not yet eaten my lunch) when I saw a blog entitled Till My Heartches End (A Movie Review). After reading the title, I knew right there and then that there's something more about it. I said, no, this couldn't be just a movie review.  So, without having second thoughts, I read it. And voila, I must admit, I was stunned. Amazed, really. The writer is really good. I don't wanna name her because she's living a very private life. But I want to reblog this because it's a good read. For those who are experiencing this as of the moment, you'll definitely agree with me. :') HAHA. Again, this is not mine, I'm just reblogging it. So here it goes:

Till My Heartaches End (A Movie Review)

How can a few hour talk in a coffee shop abruptly put an end to a relationship that lasted for years?

Till my Heartaches End is definitely one of the most realistic Filipino movies that I have ever seen. This flick, a hit last October 2010, is a movie worth watching. I've honestly watched this movie thrice: first was with him, second was with a friend and the latest.. Okay. I watched it alone - just a few hours ago. I watched it again since I don't wanna be biased with Paolo Barredo (Gerald Anderson) and his intense belief of DESTINY. I tried to be keen with all his actions, arguments and what made him decide to finally.. just.. okay. LATER. 

I'll give its movie trailer a 10/10 rating. The lines are something that you guys could possibly relate.

Every relationship starts with a beautiful beginning.. 

a woman who never knew love until she met him..

And a man who found love when she believed in him..

But when his dreams became more than she could take,

She wanted love more than he could give.

When a relationship is bound to end, 

Will you fight for it and stay? 

or will you choose to walk away?

The movie used the flashback device or whatever you call that style. Paolo Barredo, portrayed by Gerald Anderson and Agnes Ramos, starred by Kim Chiu were talking in a coffee shop. It was a sort of an infamous CLOSURE that every lover is afraid of. To quote Star Cinema's plot, "Despite the love they still both have for each other, one must choose to decide when to let go even if the other is still holding on."

The relationship seemed to be so beautiful in the beginning. Agnes was living a simple life until she met Paolo who happened to give the world to her. Everything was awesome and sweet as if they were like lying on a bed full of roses. He loved her. She loved him. Until finally - Paolo's shining dreams were actualizing and were falling into reality. Agnes failed to understand. Paolo failed to make her understand. Things went wrong since then and I can't put into words how the relationship was totally bruised like hell.

I wanna quote lots of lines from the movie but I find these two really worth mentioning. Let me start with Agnes first. When she went home from their amazing break up, she was crying to death. Her winning line was: "Ayaw niya na po sa akin. Ang sakit sakit." For Paolo, his line was something like "Nakasakit ako ng babae na mahal na mahal ako." 

Obviously, with the above mentioned lines, you would certainly know who let go. It's Paolo Barredo, Darling. At some point, you may blame him for giving the world to Agnes.. for making her fall in love with him deeply and then suddenly, like a shattered glass, Agnes was left empty when Paolo finally decided to dump her courageously. On the other hand, you may also blame Agnes for making him his world and for being too paranoid with the relationship that they're in. 

Sometimes, we realize that staying together is no longer an option. I think it's really that painful but it's totally something that one has to deal about. Perhaps love is still there but the circumstances don't really permit the love story we may have always wanted. 

Nonetheless, I am a bit confused with the movie's ending. Their paths crossed again with Paolo kissing Agnes' forehead. What does that mean? I don't know!!! Hahaha. If I were Agnes, I won't allow Paolo to kiss me.. I won't allow him to kiss me sa forehead lang. I want sa lips!!!!! Hahaha. Kidding. I was just trying to divert the super kaduper serious tone of this post. 

I demand a Part 2 of this film. Who knows? They still might end up together. In the long run, even if you'll claim that love is a choice, destiny will still play and make your paths cross. 

:')

Something random; really random

Hi! I intentionally did not go to school today 'cause I didn't feel like seeing a lot of people. What an awful way to start a week. Anyway, I really don't know where to start from here. So, i'm just gonna write about super random things. There's an examination comin' up tomorrow and I am not in the mood to study. We're going out of the country this Christmas break and I am not even excited about it. I have f^ckin' colds and i'm really f^cked up. Now, that was more than random. :'D

Okay. Brain cooperate. Coherence this time please. :'D SO! SO! Haha. K, the laugh isn't necessary. Sorry! I'm gonna talk about PABLO. Ay no. Nerdy talks are sh*t. FAMILY? Ay, that's even more bull sh*t! That asdfghjkl feeling when you see your fhgoihdfgihdfoihgs dad fhgsidhfgjdshfsjhgos other women. WHAT THE FAAAAAAAAK! >< K. Kung naintindihan mo, WOW! You know me well. :') Next, ahm, STUDIES? Really, no! I messed up man. T___T Gonna make bawi pa. :'/ But i'm not inspired man oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Whatever. FRIENDS? Oh sh*t, do I have one? I kid. Yeah, they're I don't know. They're "concerned" about me so much. Thanks ha? TALAGA. In a lil sarcastic way. --,, Sorry, i'm just being honest. I still feel damn bad about it. Really bad.

Ahh yeah. I'm really sorry about these things i'm blabbering. Hindi naman siguro masyadong halata noh na i'm down in the dumps. T____T Wait lng, kakapasok lng ng news. Signal number 2 na ang ibang bahagi ng Northern Mindanao, please, INGAT KA...YO jan! Our prayers are with you!

Now ah. . .K. May naisip na ako na topic. :'D My sister and I used to talk whether 3-month rule is really necessary. Sa relationships ha. Well then you know, personally, I don't believe in this 3-month rule but I must say, I really adore those who try to keep this. The best reason perhaps for following such is RESPECT. I have been in the world of love and relationship for about 7 years? Haha. Yeah 7 years. It was but a heck of a roller coaster ride of emotions. I've experienced all the extremes, trust me. Pero know what? Ni isa sa mga naging ex ko, hindi ever sumunod sa infamous rule na yan. :'D Got used to it though kaya nga ngayon, kahit masakit parang wala lang. Dinidedma ko nlng. :'| Well, sabi nga ng isa kong kaibigan na babae "3 months isn't enough to help you find yourself again. To better yourself, a lot of prayer is involved. While you're in the process of healing, it is but fair to show respect to the person you used to love. You need not rush things. Find strength in God, your family and friends. If you want to date again, don't immediately commit." I say, akala mo ganun lang yun kadali? To those who are in deep pain like me, kulang na kulang na kulang na kulang na kulang na kulang ang 3 months. I think it'll take me the whole of 2013 to move on. And yeah, i'm not gonna date anybody anytime soon yet. NOT HIRING! Kawawa kasi yung susunod sa kanya. I might not be able to show her true love. Buti nlng wala kesa maglokohan. The thought of staying single scares me before. But now? I don't give a damn about it. So what kung wala akong ka date sa Feb 14? So what kung wala akong ka HHWW? Hahahaha. Wala lang. Natawa ako. :'D

I really don't have any idea on how to end this post. But maybe I won't end this without telling you that there is a unique feeling of happiness and strength in letting go. As I always say, "wanting you to be happy is better than wanting you". It's really hard to fight against destiny. Really! But you see, if she's for you, then God will find a way to let your paths cross. When that time comes, huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuug her tight! Haha. I kid. That's DESTINY, baby. :')

A picture is worth a thousand words

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FACEBOOK

What would you do if the person who you think could cure all the pain is the one you couldn't ever have? Frustrating eh? </3 Anyway, i'm not in the mood to talk about that right now. Today isn't just the right timing. On the flipped side however, i'm gonna share an article i've read in the newspaper earlier (last week pa toh na issue pero ngayon ko pa nabasa :D). This one's really worth reading and somehow I can relate myself to it. :')

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Why am I still friends on FB with my ex, my current girlfriend wants to know. Here’s how social media can make relationships more complicated

By Joshua AF Dy

Philippine Daily Inquirer

12:43 am | Friday, November 23rd, 2012

Eric, 17, was texting furiously while we waited in line to watch an action flick in the mall. His new girlfriend was angry with him; he had not yet updated his relationship status on Facebook.

Now, Eric is a handsome chinito who probably has more female friends than male friends on his Facebook account. Not a single day goes by without a posting on his Wall from one of these female friends expressing admiration for Eric.

Among these female friends online is his current girlfriend, who, minutes after she accepted Eric as her boyfriend, updated her relationship status, tagging Eric. He has not yet approved the tag, nor has he changed his relationship status on the popular social media website. Now, she’s furious over it.

I couldn’t help but feel sorry for Eric. I had been in the same situation, although I think, unlike me, Eric had it coming. You couldn’t punish a man for being good looking, but when a girl feels wronged, she is often wronged. That’s why, unlike Eric, I had totally dropped off the edge of the digital planet. I have no Facebook account, and  bliss quickly took over my two-year relationship.

If you are on Facebook and are currently in a relationship, chances are you have experienced a fight over a status. Worse, you and your girlfriend would have fought over a “like” of some sexy photo your female friend posted.

Much ado

One could argue that you shouldn’t be doing it, but it seems justified to rail that there has already been much ado over an overexcited comment on your ex’s post. But hey, why are you even friends with your ex? Why not, I say!

I had been in the same situation as Eric. Somehow, that is. That’s why early this year, I deleted my Facebook account. Deactivated it, actually, but don’t tell my girlfriend that. You see, I’m friends with my ex-girlfriend. It was quite a long relationship, so there’s bound to be some feelings left, or maybe it’s just really deep friendship between the two of us. We went to the same school, and had some common friends who we have both known for years. So, I was thinking that somehow it was  inevitable that we would bump into each other, so we might as well be friends on Facebook.  As Spock would have said, it’s only logical, right?

If only  it was that simple.  I posted a photo of mine one day. Lo and behold! My ex-girlfriend was the first one to comment on it. She cracked a joke, which I thought was funny, so I liked it and posted my own comment to her comment. Well, it isn’t like we’re strangers. Clearly we had much to say to each other; we were together for  a long time.  I was happily exchanging comments with my ex-girlfriend when I was notified that my current girlfriend liked one of my comments!

I already smelled trouble somehow, but being the optimist that I am, I continued my exchange with my ex. I would later on realize that a like is not a green light to continue. It’s more like, “I know what you’re up to.  You better stop it.” Of course, I didn’t know it then, so I got into trouble with my present girlfriend for it.

Just when I thought that the storm had passed, another one hit me, with a stronger signal. You see, Facebook has this way of thwarting the continuum of time. You can’t actually say past is past, since a quick scroll down your Timeline reveals a comprehensive overview of what you had been doing on social media.

Worse, Facebook  has a way of bringing up the past. For example, when a friend makes a new comment on your old photo, it would reappear on your News Feed. It becomes current news on your and your friends’ News Feed.

This introduces a whole new problem when trying to bury the past, hidden from the mind of your somewhat love-crazed girlfriend. Old wounds could easily be opened, even after you have successfully healed it with a romantic harana outside her house. It may have been forgiven, but it will never be forgotten. Thanks to Facebook.

Undone

Some time after the first storm had already passed, my ex-girlfriend posted a new comment on some photos.  It was then republished on my News Feed as well as on my girlfriend’s.  All the work that a dozen red roses had done to get it behind us was undone by a single comment. We fought again because she thought that I was rekindling my romance with my ex-girlfriend. Why am I even friends with her in the first place, she asked. I said, we’re just friends. Besides, it’s only Facebook.

It wasn’t our last fight, nor was it the worst. But I thought it illustrated how Facebook “digitalized” (and supposedly simplified) our relationship with other people. I thought it was a whole new way of relating to other people, free from the drama of the real world. But it turned out to be basically the same story, except that, since info travels much more faster, it also complicates things faster.

The funny thing is, guys easily dismiss their digital “indiscretion” as if it’s far removed from the real world, although they are experiencing its pervasiveness and potential to complicate the real world at the moment.

So, after a few more fights, made all the more exhausting because I thought we were fighting over a petty thing, I deleted my Facebook account. We still fight, though not as often as we did when I was hyper-connected with my friends digitally. Occasionally, I  activate my account quickly just to check on the lives of friends, but only when she’s asleep and wouldn’t know.

We were nearing the entrance when Eric decided to turned off his cell phone, and for a while forget about his new girlfriend, who just wouldn’t let the matter go. He would soon face the music, though, but at least, for now, he could watch the movie with us. Besides, I told him my experience after we went out for coffee. I hope he’ll be better equipped to handle it. If not, he still has those expressive eyes and winning smile.